we were young
starting at sixteen
the first time i really loved
first open embrace
we vowed to take that forever
hand in hand until the uncertain end
with all the naivety that comes with highschool romances
and if there was one thing you always told me…
you were ready to die for me
and no one loved you more than me
but we never talked about life
about beauty
about the moon
or how it ripples on the water
we made love
but we did not make art
we did not create
we screamed and cried and made up passionately
as the world spun four times
and no one loved you more than me
stroking our egos when fear of solitude consumed the pain,
struggling to be swallowed
i still remember the rage the last time i looked into your eyes
as you laid on top of me with the audacity for apologies
no one’s hurt me more than you
and no one ever will
even after the end, i carried you with me
folded in thirds in my back pocket
until i found breath and saw love is not pain
i can have joy without sorrow
laughter without tears
beautiful embraces without the promise of forever
i can be alone and feel loved
i can fuck without regret
and fall in love without fear
stand under the sun and melt into the concrete
chanting the mantra
love is life and energy and colors and the wind…
don’t wait for the beep
i’ve already left the death march
inspired sadness and truth to come forward. appreciate you sweetness.
i appreciate you and all the loving support you show me